The irony of it is, it says the last time I posted on this was over a year ago. The unfortunate part is that I have been blogging under a different login and somehow, I have forgotten my password so I guess all of those are lost forever. It seems like an easy problem to solve, but who knows.
It is Saturday and almost Christmas and I worked on my feet for 8 hours. It is strange how everything changes as you get older. I now work on my Saturdays instead of playing outside all day. When I was little the days seemed to go on forever. Now they pass by as if they never really happened. Saturday nights use to hold such wonder. I never knew what I would be getting myself into. Now, I am lucky to rent a movie. Usually I just throw one in that I own and have seen more times than can count on my fingers and toes. Tonight it is "Series of Unfortuanate Events." Jim Carey is really good in it I think.
Today I strung some Chrsitmas lights on our porch and it is helping to keep me in the mood. I have been feeling so spirited but all the work I have been doing tends to get me down. I don't like to work, I like to sit in coffee shops and read and write and listen to music. I like to window shop. I like to go to book clubs. I like to have good conversation. I like to clean up my room and wash my sheets. I like to go on walks. I like to browse the computer. What I don't like to do is go to work everyday. The reason I work is to support my life. What happens when my life becomes work? Then everything is backwards. It is all about work.
Today I also saw a picture of a guy I use to really like with his new girl. I didn't expect to have such a reaction because I haven't thought about him in about a year but he did cross my mind today. It was him who I talked to last year when I was working really late at the boutique. I would call him back on my drive home after a 12 hour work day. Today as I was driving home from the boutique, I recalled that and was shocked that it was a year ago. Then tonight I saw his picture. It gave me a strange feelings, like something lost. Mainly because I lost his friendship and it was important to me. It is strange how some people can dismiss others from their life. I have never been good at that. I would probably be much happier in life if I could learn how to do that. Instead, I just hang on and fight.
Just a note, you really shouldn't blog late a night after a long day, you tend to say stuff you would normally never consider saying!
It is Saturday and almost Christmas and I worked on my feet for 8 hours. It is strange how everything changes as you get older. I now work on my Saturdays instead of playing outside all day. When I was little the days seemed to go on forever. Now they pass by as if they never really happened. Saturday nights use to hold such wonder. I never knew what I would be getting myself into. Now, I am lucky to rent a movie. Usually I just throw one in that I own and have seen more times than can count on my fingers and toes. Tonight it is "Series of Unfortuanate Events." Jim Carey is really good in it I think.
Today I strung some Chrsitmas lights on our porch and it is helping to keep me in the mood. I have been feeling so spirited but all the work I have been doing tends to get me down. I don't like to work, I like to sit in coffee shops and read and write and listen to music. I like to window shop. I like to go to book clubs. I like to have good conversation. I like to clean up my room and wash my sheets. I like to go on walks. I like to browse the computer. What I don't like to do is go to work everyday. The reason I work is to support my life. What happens when my life becomes work? Then everything is backwards. It is all about work.
Today I also saw a picture of a guy I use to really like with his new girl. I didn't expect to have such a reaction because I haven't thought about him in about a year but he did cross my mind today. It was him who I talked to last year when I was working really late at the boutique. I would call him back on my drive home after a 12 hour work day. Today as I was driving home from the boutique, I recalled that and was shocked that it was a year ago. Then tonight I saw his picture. It gave me a strange feelings, like something lost. Mainly because I lost his friendship and it was important to me. It is strange how some people can dismiss others from their life. I have never been good at that. I would probably be much happier in life if I could learn how to do that. Instead, I just hang on and fight.
Just a note, you really shouldn't blog late a night after a long day, you tend to say stuff you would normally never consider saying!
posted by Rage at 12:47 AM
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