Weird

So far, this day is turning out to be such a strange day. It is rainy and dreary, which always alters moods. Jer's grandma passed away this morning so he is really sad, and I was thinking about old dreams I use to have when I was driving in. I feel a weight today. It's strange. I feel like there is a little cloud over us. I suppose somewhere, someone is the happiest they have ever been but it kinda feels like everyone must be a little sad today. The Christmas tree is still up in my office. Mainly because Megs decides when it comes and when it goes. She has not been around to make that call, so it sits here, all light up so it doesn't go to waste, but just looking at it is depressing. Like holding on to things past, which is what I seem to do. Hold onto things past. I'm sentimental. I can't help it. I don't want to let things go.